April 24, 2023
Why do we compulsively shop and spend? Let's talk money and trauma
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In this episode, Cass Dunn answers another listener question. This time around the links between unhealthy spending habits and childhood trauma.Why is it that sometimes when we find ourselves in times of stress, we hit the shops for a quick fix? Why do we do compulsively shop even though we know we shouldn't and we'll end up feeling guilt, shame or regret? And what are the links between your relationship with money, and self worth?
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Transcript
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A listener production.
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Welcome to another solo episode of Crappy and Happy, and
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today I have another listener question which I thought was
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a really interesting one. So let me play that for
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you right now.
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Hip pass. I'm wondering if you could provide more details
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and go into the psychology around money and the connection
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to trauma. So, for example, I get rarely stressed at
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Christmas time based on family members, that I've lost my
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connection with my parents, feeling lonely, all sorts of feelings. Basically,
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I was overspending and I drained my bank accounts. I
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was conscious that I was doing it, but then at
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the same time, I just kept doing it.
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Okay, So, first of all, straight off the top, it
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goes without saying that this podcast is not intended to
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be a substitute for professional medical therapeutic support. The only
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information that I can share here is general information that
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is broadly applicable to lots of people. I am not
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offering individual advice or therapy on the show or ever online,
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So that's my disclaimer. I would be in a lot
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of trouble if I offered personal psychological advice on the podcast.
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Having said that, this issue of money and trauma, I
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think is a really really interesting one, and so that's
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why when this question came in, I was really keen
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to address it here on the show, because I think
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many listeners, as we know, have experienced some form of
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trauma in their lives, and many people also struggle financially,
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whether it's to do with being in constant debt, always
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spending more than new man, never feeling like you have enough,
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whether it is undercharging for services, having difficulty asking for
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what you're worth financially, there's a whole lot of really
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complicated links and associations between money and self worth, and
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also to do with just how we manage our impulses
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and our behaviors generally. So let me just talk about
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that briefly on the show today, and then if you
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identify that this is potentially a problem for you, then
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it might prompt you to go and seek some advice
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or some support of your own in this area. Broadly speaking,
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we all know that experiencing trauma in childhood is associated
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with a whole lot of complicated issues later in life,
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particularly to do with mental health issues. We've talked on
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this podcast about even physical health issues that might be
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a later consequence of early childhood trauma, but particularly things
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like addictive behaviors, mental health, mood disorders. These can all
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be consequences of early childhood difficulties, early childhood adverse experiences.
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We know that childhood trauma has links later with attention
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deficit disorder ADHD, and as we know, as we've already discussed,
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ADHD is not so much a deficit of attention or
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a disorder related to attention. It's more a disorder related
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to executive functioning and impulse control. So it's all of
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the part of your brain, the prefrontal cortex is associated
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with planning and implementing and executing on a task or
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a project and staying on track with that, holding that
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in your working memory, and keeping that at the forefront
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and the priority, as opposed to being pulled offline and
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pulled off course by other what we call the subcordical
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regions of the brain, which is more that impulsive kind
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of behave where they come in. So issues to do
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with impulse control, issues to do with behavior management, regulating
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your behaviors, resisting the urge to do certain things, these
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can all be compromised by early childhood trauma. The parts
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of your brain associated with executive functioning and impulse control
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can be affected by early childhood trauma. So therefore, anything
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that is a compulsive sort of a behavior, whether it
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be eating, spending, gambling, inappropriate sexual activities, pornography, anything that
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serves that purpose I guess, of providing an immediate source
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of pleasure or reward. Those really high dopamine kind of behaviors,
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the pleasure seeking sort of behaviors. People who have experienced
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trauma can have difficulty regulating those sorts of behaviors and
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keeping them in check. When we talk about shopping, compulsive
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buying disorder is an actual term, and compulsive buying disorder
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refers to as it probably sounds, compulsively spending money in
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a way that ultimately is going to have negative consequences.
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It's very much like any other addictive behavior. An addictive
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behavior is something that you continue to do you compulsively.
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You feel compelled to continue to do the behavior despite
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the fact that there are negative, very real, negative consequences
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associated with the behavior. I guess. The other thing that
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we know about early trauma is that it is often
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associated with fairly chronic feelings of unworthiness. It is if
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you have an insecure attachment, which is the most likely
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outcome if you've experienced childhood trauma, and we've talked previously
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about insecure attachment on this show, then that can often
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manifest as feeling fearful, untrusting, feeling unsafe in the world world,
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having difficulty forming intimate connections with other people, being vulnerable
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opening up, have difficulties trusting people or being trustworthy, whether
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you are comfortable to get close to people, or you
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remain avoidant of people because you are fearful of that
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kind of vulnerability that comes with those intimate relationships, potentially
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because you have no experience of that if you didn't
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experience that growing up feelings of shame, and remember shame
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is that belief that if people really knew you, they
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would reject you. So it's just sort of this internal
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core feeling that there is something bad or wrong with
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you that other people would have difficulty accepting. Childhood trauma
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creates all of these kinds of feelings, So if you
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feel that way, then often that can lead to behaviors
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that really are an attempt to escape that kind of
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Those are all really painful feelings, deeply painful feelings, and
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so when you've experienced trauma, you're often drawn to behaviors
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that give you something pleasurable or help you to escape
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or avoid those core feelings of shame or unworthiness or unhappiness,
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whatever it is that you're experiencing. Hence the compulsion towards
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addictive kind of behaviors. And we know with addictive behaviors
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they are highly rewarding in terms of they produce a
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lot of dopamine in your brain, and dopamine is the chemical,
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the neurotransmitter associated with motivation. So you when you experience
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something that gives you a lot of pleasure, that you
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are compelled to repeat that behavior too. That's its whole function,
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that's what dopamine is designed to do. This is why
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people who have difficult early experiences can often be drawn
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into this kind of cycle of addictive kind of behaviors
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and then end up in this pattern of repeating those behaviors.
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And of course the more that you repeat the behaviors,
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the more compulsive they become. And if you also have
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feeling self shame or guilt associated with those behaviors because
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you know that they're bad, or you're getting yourself into debt,
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or you're getting yourself into not functioning in life. You
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know that you're drinking too much or eating too much,
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shopping too much. The feeling of shame, which just makes
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you feel worse, is going to only propel you more
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towards those behaviors that are designed to avoid the feelings
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of pain, very self reinforcing, very much a vicious cycle,
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and that is often what the cycle and the pattern
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that people find themselves in. Compulsive buying is characterized by
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excessive or poorly controlled preoccupations, urges, and or behaviors focused
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on shopping and spending, which can cause psychological distress and
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lead to reduced quality of life. So compulsive buying or
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shopping is just one variation of a compulsive behavior that
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you might experience if you have experienced childhood trauma. And
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I'm not saying that only people with childhood trauma might
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experience compulsive buying. And I'm not saying that every person
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who's experienced compulsive buying will engage in compulsive behaviors. That's
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not true. We just know that there is a greater likelihood,
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there is an increased risk. You may have had no
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childhood trauma and still be compelled to engage in these
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compulsive buying activities or any other compulsive activities. It's just
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that the association is stronger when there is a history
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of trauma or adverse childhood experience. So there hasn't been
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a lot of research done into this from what I
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can tell, but I did find a couple of studies,
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and one examined five different types of childhood trauma occurring
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before the age of twelve years and they were witnessing violence,
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experiencing physical neglect, emotional abuse, physical abuse, and sexual abuse.
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So those five types of childhood trauma, which you'll probably
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recognize as five from the ACES study, the ad Childhood
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Experiences study. They looked at those five experiences in relationship
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to compulsive buying and they found that all forms of trauma,
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all of those five forms of trauma were statistically significantly
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correlated with compulsive buying or shopping. And what they found
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was that particularly strong were witnessing violence and experiencing emotional
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abuse before the age of twelve, So there was a
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very strong correlation between early childhood trauma and compulsive shopping.
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Another study found that people will often turn to materialism
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in the face of uncertainty in life, either uncertainty within themselves,
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as in a core feeling of self doubt or just
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uncertainty socially uncertainty with the world. People are drawn to
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materialist kind of behaviors when they experience uncertainty. It's almost
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a form of exerting control over what you can control
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when you feel like things are out of control, or
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you're feeling self doubt or uncertain or unstable within yourself,
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which makes sense. The other thing that shopping does is
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if there is a core feeling of unworthiness, if there
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is a feeling of lack within yourself, it can be
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very easy to be drawn to acquiring things and holding
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onto things, either to project an image of worthiness. If
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I look nice and if I dress well, and if
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I have this nice car and these nice things and
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buy this nice house, then people won't see how unworthy
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I feel inside. So I'm trying to present an image
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that will be I think will be accepted by other people.
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That will make me more likable, that will make me
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more accepted, validated, approved of. So looking for that validation
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in the form of material things. It's also remember if
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you think about Maslow's higherarchy of needs, the very bottom,
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the very basic level of safety. The very fundamental need
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on that hierarchy is feeling safe and having enough of
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the basics in life, having food, having roof over your head,
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having something to wear, warmth. Before you even go up
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to feeling safe from harm or climbing up to things
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like self actualization and self esteem, we need to have
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how material needs met. We need to have our basic needs,
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physical needs taken care of. And so sometimes if we're
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feeling unsafe in the world, which is a key feature
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of somebody who's experienced childhood trauma, then buying things can
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give us that feeling of security, that feeling of material security,
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like I have enough if I keep enough things around me,
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if there's enough food in the cupboard, if there's enough stuff,
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then it can kind of psychologically give me that feeling
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of safety and security. So I guess it's complicated, and
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there's also no simple answer. There's no straightforward answer about
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why in this situation would I be triggered into compulsively
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shopping and filling my pantry even though I've already got enough.
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But it's fair to say that where there is an
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experience of family dysfunction, where there is a trauma associated
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with your family of origin, which it most often is.
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Then contact with your family of origin can be a
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triggering experience. So if you're you might be getting along
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fine in the world, doing your job and having your
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friends and you know, living your life, and often people
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can feel kind of psychologically activated, triggered in experiences. We're
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going to be back in contact with those people who
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are associated with early trauma, whatever that trauma might have been.
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There's a whole lot of associations there with those people
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and in that situation that can be activated. And even
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if you're not really consciously aware of it, it's happening
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at an unconscious level. Remember, your nervous system is constantly
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kind of looking for signals of safety or signals of danger,
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and it's spotting things in the world that you're not
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even conscious of physically, you know, like your nervous system
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is picking up on sites and smells and tone of voice,
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and shadows and colors in your environment which you probably
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have no conscious memory of, but they can trigger associations
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that are locked away deep in the recesses of your
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unconscious mind. And then your nervous system starts to react.
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And again this is happening in your physiology. It's not
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a conscious choice. It's not something you decide or that
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you have control over. Your nervous system starts to react
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that that threat response starts to mobilize, it starts to
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get activated, and you can just find yourself feeling out
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of thoughts or just compulsively doing things designed to either
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escape feelings of discomfort or to deliberately induce feelings of
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safety and security or pleasure because something else is going on.
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You've been triggered somehow. I guess it sort of makes
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sense that, particularly for somebody like my listener, who is
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in a situation where she was going to be back
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in contact with people who she might associate with early childhood,
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and no matter how much therapy she might have done
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and talked through this and felt like she'd resolved it
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at a conscious level, then often unconsciously little things can
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just trigger us into old patterns of behavior. So there
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could be various reasons why that manifested as going out
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and buying and overspending, but it was very much the
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definition of compulsively buying knowing that there was a negative consequence,
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like I'm draining my bank account buying this stuff when
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I don't actually need it, and that is the very
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definition of what a compulsive buying disorder is. If it
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